My brother has been visiting from Germany for a mere three days and already I feel antsy. Not because I want him to leave but because it was in an instant that I regressed to the role of big sis. He's celebrating his 29th birthday tomorrow and yet I still have the urge to mother and scold him.

Granted I was his substitute mother as I am 13 years his senior and our own mother, well, she was more often absent than not. I changed his diapers, gave him his formula and played patty-cake with him until I was moved out. Then I didn't see him again until March of this year - which means a good 18 years passed between me playing surrogate mom and him ultimately growing up. I just can't seem to shake that caretaker role; it's weird.

I was upset with him yesterday about something..hmmm... oh yeah! Porno. German porno on my computer while I wasn't watching (on a side note - porno in German is not sexy at all). I was trying to be nice about it but I don't think I was successful. He looked at me like I was nuts. Well, it's my house, my rules, no porno on the damn Internet. Grrrr. I changed my password and that's that. But I digress....

I think he's still trying to feel his way into this "new" relationship of us being (supposedly) grown up and responsible (Ha!) adults. Although when I see him playing with my son he reminds me more of a child than ever. Then again, I think that is just a guy thing.

He's going to be here for a full two weeks and most likely will spend more time on his own than with me (work schedules will do that). So maybe it's not so bad. I just can't help the mothering thing and he can't get used to being mothered. We'll just have to muddle our way through it somehow...