I've neglected my blog somewhat the past week or so. There is a perfectly good reason for that and while I feel a bit reluctant to put it out there - I'm going to do it anyway. That's how brave I am! Ha!

I've had an ex resurface after many years. Again. He's like a boomerang that just will not quit coming back. This is the same one that sort of left his wife for me (without informing her), that ended up leaving me for some other woman, eventually bounced back to me...well, you get the picture. I've been done with it for a long time. Years. I've moved on.

Every once in a while he will surface again and want to reminisce or whatever the purpose may be, I'm not sure. I made the mistake to email him a few times, I should've never done that. What was I thinking!!

In the meantime, I've noticed that he's found my blog (darn siggy's) and has repeatedly come back to read. Well, I suppose I am out there in the blogosphere exposed and any Tom, Dick or Jane can read what I have to say. I just never thought one of the masses would be him. In a weird sort of way I felt violated.

I tried to ignore it, but every time I sat down to write I found that I would censor myself, my words, my thoughts. Always thinking... "what if he thinks this is about him?" As in one of my previous posts about the love of my life. And no, it had nothing to do with him. He read it like 51 times though. Almost obsessive methinks.

However, today I thought, dammit, this is my blog! Why am I giving him power that I took back years ago? This is truly counterproductive and a little retarded. So here I am... Maybe he will stay gone after he reads this....